99.9% of the time when people see I’m expecting my 5th child and then soon learn we homeschool, the reactions are similar.
“I could never do it!”
“Three was enough for me!”
“You must be so patient!”
It’s always a little awkward because I think in that moment, while talking with other moms, it’s assumed I’m the ‘better’ mom. Sending their children to public school or stopping at two kids makes me the essence of patience and love. Michelle Duggar.
Confession. I do not like to be with my kids all the time.
Do I love them dearly? Of course. Just like you love your kids.
Do I wish I could drop them off for a few hours everyday to regain my sanity. Yup.
I have always felt guilty about this revelation. I’ve also dealt with jealously when I see other families who can afford mother’s day out, private school, or whose children thrive in public school. We tried those things, they didn’t work, and homeschool was/is the natural option. It works well for my family and it’s molding me more so than my children.
As a former kindergarten teacher, I thought I had more patience than most. However, I got to GO HOME at the end of the day. Ha. In homeschooling, there is no rest for the weary mom. And for me to say that it’s joyful every second is a big fat lie.
As my two oldest become more independent, the stressful moments are diminishing a bit…until October when we’ll welcome number 5. I relish the quiet moments and have learned to give up comparing my life to others.
I grow closer to God daily and see what He’s doing in me and my children. It’s a beautiful thing. However, I still have many a grouchy moments everyday. Just when two are down for a nap, the others need me. I’m always on. It’s exhausting, and I don’t always like my job. It’s o.k. I don’t have to love it every second. I would be Jesus if I did. I’m human. I’m cool with that. I know with His help, I’ll get better everyday.
Will I give up? Heck no! However, I just wanted to share with you all the down and dirty of a homeschooling mom to many who doesn’t ever get a break.
It’s crazy beautiful. It’s crazy exhausting. It’s also so worth it.
Fill that coffee cup, take a deep breath, say a prayer, and keep on truckin’ ladies! I’m there!