The Moment I Knew I Wanted Another Child

Family planning.  That phrase seems to sum up parenthood in a pretty little package.

“We want 2 kids.”

“We want 4.”

“1 of each.”

Unfortunately, most parents know all too well you cannot plan parenthood.  It’s actually laughable to plan a family. 

Miscarraige.

Infertility.

Twins when you wanted only 1.

The birth control failed.

The birth control ended up making you infertile.

Pregnant too soon.

Pregnant after a long wait.

It rarely works out the way we ‘plan’. 

It’s been that way for me.  Getting pregnant is easy.   Staying pregnant is not.  Lots of heartbreak.  However, it only makes that moment you hold your newborn more precious.

We always said we wanted four children.  Now, here we sit.  Our family has been *planned*….but only by God.  The times I tried to work out a due date in my favor never happened.  He was in control.  After a rough few months in the Tela Novela that is my uterus, I have been wondering if we should just call it quits.  Schedule a check up with the ‘ol urologist.  Maybe 4 was just meant to be.  Maybe God is telling me something.

And then, tonight, it happened.  That moment when I knew I wanted another.  The moment when it didn’t matter if it was a boy or girl.  My husband looked at me and knew it too.  Our 1 year old took his first steps into his brother’s arms.  The joy in both their faces was awesome.  Amazing.  A gift.  It wasn’t about me or my husband.  It was this little family we have been blessed to have.  It’s just not finished yet.

should we have another baby?

In that sweet few seconds, God whispered to my heart.  A million hard days are worth these precious moments.  There’s always room for one more.  Love wins even when you’re too exhausted to take an Instagram photo of those first steps.

 

 

Comments

  1. Our 4th is 8 months old, and I’m already thinking about the next one too. I’m very happy with how things are right now, but I do feel like our family isn’t quite complete yet. I get the “Are you done?” and “You know how this happens, right?” comments a lot, but that’s okay. We have 3 boys and 1 girl. I always envisioned my family like the Cosby’s: lots of girls and maybe 1 boy. Now I can’t imagine and wouldn’t want things any other way. Go figure! 🙂

    • elizabeth says:

      I LOVE THE COSBY’s!!!!! That is seriously how I’ve always envisioned my family!!!!! Thanks for the comment!

  2. Jessica M says:

    I have 5 boys ages 6,5,4,2, and 1. And found out I am pregnant again!!! I always said before marriage maybe a couple kids 1 of each would be ideal. Well God had this plan that so far has all boys and way more than just 2! We are letting God take control of our family and trying to be sensitive to what he may tell us as our family grows. I have got all the comments that are rude, nasty, hurtful, and sarcastic. They have slowed after the 5th was born (good news it does come to an end! My MIL said eventually they must give up figuring your not going to listen anyway)! I love having boys, it is a trip, Would I like a girl? I don’t know honestly! I figure God doesn’t give more than we can handle so if I get a girl I guess I can handle it!

    • elizabeth says:

      I love it Jessica! THanks for commenting and CONGRATS on a new little bundle! Pink would be awesome, but blue would fit right in too! That’s so great! LEt me know when you find out what you’re having!!!

  3. How sweet! You are so right that in the end it’s God who plans our family. And I know that not quite done feeling well. My two are just old enough to start playing together and I’m just starting to realize what a blessing siblings are for kids. Hopefully The Lord will give us many more playmates in the future. Thanks for linking up at Babies and Beyond!

  4. After almost 13 years, we have come to the end of a season, i think. We just put the high chair in the shed, ready for the garage sale. After 5 boys, we are open for more, but i am mid 40s now and a little excited about the prospect of the next phase without diapers, high chairs, and toting a 20 pound diaper bag everywhere. But then it’s so sad to think there will be no new little bobble head learning to walk, and no fresh little smushy face to kiss. I’m torn. And thankful God is in control. We’ll let Him decide. Until then i will enjoy the extra sleep I’m getting these days. 🙂

  5. You are right. Things never work out they way we plan. I have 2 boys 20 months apart and my hubby and I thought we were well on to our way of having at least 5 kids. God has different plans. Our youngest son just turned 6. We are so grateful for the 2 living boys we have and the one son who was born still but are still coming to terms with moving out of the baby/preschool stage so much earlier than we had anticipated. I just wish I had somehow savored it all more.

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